I am sooo far behind its not even funny. I am going to try to start updating from now on though.
I had a prayer answered for me about 2 weeks ago. I had started feeding the babies on both sides instead of just oneside and they had me up more than they usually do. I was getting up with them 6 to 8 times a night. That's rough. They had only slept 6 hours at the most once so almost 6 months I haven't slept longer than 3 to 4 hours in a given time. Rough. We were on our way home from my family party and I was so tired and stressed I began to sob to Brandon that I was done nursing. I couldn't do it anymore. I felt like I was losing my milk and I wasn't being able to feed the babies what they needed so I was done. I love nursing. Its something that has been pretty much natural for me and I enjoy it so much. Its tough but the best way to bond with my kids. I love the closeness I feel with them. I was pretty devastated that I was going to quit nursing but I honestly was so run down I just didn't think I could do it anymore. That night I told Brandon I was going to just try letting the babies cry themselves to sleep if they woke up. Its so hard to do that but I just needed some sleep. I put in ear plugs and then put on my noise blocking head phones and went to sleep. I didn't wake up until 5am when Sawyer came and got in our bed. I asked Brandon if the babies had cried at all and he said he didn't hear them once. I was shocked! They had slept 7 hours! Ever since then they have been sleeping 10 hours!! I now know that I was not meant to stop nursing just yet! The Lord truly answers prayers no matter what they are! So blessed to know I have a Heavenly Father who knows and loves me!
