Its a Woman Thing

Man, I am having some major emotional issues as of late. I have been constantly on the verge of tears for the past week or so. I have a lot going on right now which is not helping me keep control of my emotions. Here are the things weighing on my mind:
1st- I am having to start supplementing Sawyer with formula. *SIGH* For all you women who nursed you understand why this is so huge. Nursing was a little rough at first but I LOVE it! It is such a bonding experience for Sawyer and I. Words can't even begin to describe the bond between mother and baby during nursing. That is the one thing nobody else can do for him but ME. Its a time that I get to spend alone just cuddling and loving on Sawyer. Its Mommy and Sawyer's Special time! Having to give that up is just heartbreaking. I know we will still have our own special time but this all means he is growing up. I don't like that fact! :0) These 9 months have FLOWN by too fast for me. I feel like I've missed a lot....
2nd- I am getting things in order at my work so I can quit soon. This makes me very happy cause I can't wait to stay home with my lil' bug but it also makes me sad in a way. I've grown very close to my guys at my work. They are like my family. It will be hard leaving them.
3rd- I miss my sister! Nikki, this is not to make you feel guilty at all. I am just expressing my feelings! I haven't seen her since March. There are times when I need someone to talk to and her and Derik are the only ones I can go to at times. I just wish I was able to go SEE her and talk to her in person. I can't wait for her to move home. I had a dream the other day of her, Derik and I just chillin at home talking, doing face masks (yes even Derik lol), laughing hysterically and just enjoying each other's company. Gave me fuzzies thing about it! We always have such a good time when we are together! We always find some way to make each other laugh so hard we cry! That is the ONE and ONLY time I like crying! I feel lucky that I have them in my life. We are have our arguments of course but we are so close. Can't wait until we are all back together once again (hint hint Nikki!).
4th- My sugar addiction is very frustrating. Over the weekend I didn't drink any soda which was great and not as hard as I thought it was going to be. I also went running Sunday. It was very hard but I felt so good afterwards. Then I was an idiot and ate chocolate chip cookies for breakfast, lunch, and dessert!!! Ugh! So much for running. I really want to get into shape and FEEL healthy. That's my biggest thing is to feel healthy. I felt healthier after my run Sunday up until I ate all those stinking cookies! Ek! Makes me want to smack myself to think of how many I ate! Normal people would probably have been sick after all those cookies. I'm a sad, sad person!
There are a few other little things such as my car needs new tires even tho these ones are probably on a YEAR old. I have to thank Brandon for that! He's a crazy driver! lol That's my post for the day.....