Feeling a Little Blue

I am not really sure why either. Brandon went up to the cabin with his dad and nephews and I thought that was going to be a good idea. I am finding I was wrong. I know he needed to go this weekend cause he's been stressed but i miss him. I hung out with Kelly and my mom last night and it was fun but I just couldn't get over the blah feeling in me. Today has been worse. I didn't sleep well last night and Sawyer would not take a nap at all. So I didn't get to either. I finally got him down around 3:30 only to have him wake up about 20 minutes later and puke. Ugh. That was the stick that broke this camels back. I want to scream or cry but that wouldn't be the best for Sawyer so instead I am eating my feelings away. I am in one of those self loathing moods as well. I am eating which means putting on pounds which just makes me want to scream/cry harder. I just don't know what else to do right now. I don't feel like being around anyone or doing anything. I hate these moods. This one has lasted a little too long for my liking though. Hopefully next week will be better. Sigh. Thanks for listening to my complaining.