I am desperate to find something I excel at. I look around me at the people I know and I can name at least 10 things my family and friends can do sooo much better than me. When I look at myself I can only say "yeah, I'm ok at that. Not great, but ok." I don't want to be ok at something anymore. I want to be great. I have tried several things and have not found one thing I'm great at. It makes me feel very worthless especially when I think about it too much (such as now). These feelings of uselessness and worthlessness have been eating me alive lately. The Lord says he gives everyone talents but I have yet to find mine.
I had a friend tell me that I am beautiful (such a sweet compliment).... that's not a talent and beauty always fades. Someone tried to cheer me up and say I am good at decorating... this made me laugh out loud! My house is still decorated for Easter! I have Easter eggs all over still. So no. That is not one of my talents. Writing, singing, dancing, drawing.... all things I would love to be great at but will never be. I've come to accept those things but I wish I could find just one thing that was mine that I could say "yes, I am great at that." I keep praying for the Lord to help me find my talents. Maybe I am not praying the right way or maybe I am praying for the wrong thing? I'm not sure. I just hope one day I can feel a little bit of accomplishment in my little life. Something that makes me feel good about myself. I think everyone needs that. Sigh.
3 comments:
You cook and bake good food, Sheena! I feel much the same as you but I just have to remember that I am quick to forgive and try to see things from other people's perspective. Remember, talents aren't always some actual skill that you either have talent for or work to perfect. It can also be a character trait! Those are things that can affect those around you, and especially your family, with eternal consequences. How well you decorate your house or scrapbook simply will not matter. I'm sorry you've been feeling down, but you DO have talents! You are awesome, Sheena!
I think the problem with society as a whole is that most of us lack the confidence to succeed. We doubt ourselves. You have to take some risks screw some things up and finally you will see I actually can do that and I can do it quite well.
Do you really think I would marry a mediocre wife? Not in a million years! Besides being the sexiest woman alive and a tigress in the bed :), I know you have the ability to be distinguished in anything you want. That is why I have no problems with you going to school. I know you will be AMAZING in whatever you choose. You are already the greatest mom Sawyer could ask for. You can make any recipe you find, how is that not great. There are so many people that would love to have your abilities at doing so many things! So what if the house is still in Easter, you know it’s because I won’t let you spend the money it takes to decorate. You could redesign the entire interior of our house in a weekend and make it look fantastic! I think you just need to take a step back and see how AMAZING you really are!
i feel this way all the time. remember not to compair your worst to someone's best (i'm still working on that) i've been jealous of you since what 5th grade.
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